Friday, October 7, 2011

All good things.

It is with gratitude that I write this post.
First thing I want you to know, is my health is great!
We've recently been to see 2 of our Docs and they are giving me good news as well as an understanding that some of my ongoing "gut" struggles may be with me for awhile. 
Somehow though, knowing that -- helps me understand better how to move forward from here.

Unbelievably, it was 1 year ago today, I walked into Parkview Hospital and became intimately acquainted with The Whipple.
Boy oh boy, what a year this has been!!
Starting with the surgery in October, we have (like so many of our friends)
"been there and back"!
We've celebrated birthdays and anniversaries, drivers licenses, leading roles, holidays, passing grades (and not so passing grades), endings (High School for Ben) and beginnings (college for same child!). 
We have said good-bye to friends and made some new ones.
We've celebrated God's goodness and then, what seems to be the very same breath,
       we've wondered about His plans.
We've remodeled many things - including our house, our lives, and our thinking about the future.
We've tried to keep the things that were working, well...working.
And the things that needed changing -- honestly?  We're still figuring those out.
We've all turned a year older and hopefully (with God's grace) we're all a little wiser.
And through it all,
We remain deeply aware of the goodness of God.
Time and time again -- almost always EXACTLY when we needed it,
God has shown up.
Through a text or an email,
            a meal or a cup of coffee.
A visit, a walk, a chance encounter at the Wal-Mart.
Wherever and whenever...
we have seen Him in the big and small moments that have gotten smushed together to make up this year.
And more times than I can count, we have looked at each other and said,
"It wasn't Cancer".
And so, we mark this moment,
                               the ending of a year.
Grateful in ways I find difficult to express.
Mostly, that there's another 12 months right in front of us.
Thank you for all your kindness, your prayers, your curiosity, and belief.
Thank you for loving us in ways we never knew we wanted, but were exactly what we needed.
Kelly, Suze
Ben, Katie & Mackenzie

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