On the Floor - not laughing.

Today I had to go into our family physician's office and have the 3 hour version of the Glucose Challenge test.  They are looking to see how much insulin the remainder of the ole pancreas is producing.  This is the same test lots of mama's have to do when they've got a bun in the oven.  Not pleasant, but not horrible either....

     normally.

For me, this morning was ridiculously difficult.  I ended up on the floor of an exam room at the doctors office (which I had asked for just because you can't leave for the 3 hours and I wanted to avoid all the sick kiddos coming to see Dr. Holly in the waiting room!) because 20 minutes after the test started I had some kind of MAJOR reaction to the glucose.  Not going to go into details -- just trust me, it was baaaaad.  The goofiest part was that here I was at my Docs office and no one knew how bad I was doing because the reaction I had is not "normal" and so they don't typically check on folks.  So, it wasn't until the lab tech came in to do the blood draw at hour 1 that anyone knew I was struggling.  

Needless to say -- they paid attention after that!

So today, instead of getting Christmasy (finish the shopping, make a buckeye or 30, and dunking some pretzels in chocolate) I ended up on the couch.  

Hmmm...really tempting to get discouraged -- but I'm just NOT CHOSING IT.  Things could be so much worse.  I could be fighting for so much more than just my energy or certain systems to be working together.  I'm aware of it -- the "could be-ness" of my life right now -- almost every minute of every day.  And it doesn't lead to a crazy fervor to make it all count (I kind of already had that!!), nope it just makes me want to pay attention.  

To really listen, look around, and be aware of what might be in this for me.  

Today, I'm so aware that my story is still being written.

That I have lots to learn about life and living it with love and grace and gratefulness.

And every opportunity like this morning becomes a beautiful reminder that my life is an ADVENTURE that was absolutely planned with me in mind -- and that I have everything I need to not only survive this day, but to celebrate it!  Wow... I'm so grateful.

So today, as you're looking at the calendar and realizing that the family is coming (or you're going), the food has to be bought and prepped, there are a few things left to be purchased and wrapped, and you are still fighting to find your Christmas spirit, just remember...

Emmanuel,  Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, & Prince of Peace,  were all Jesus' names before he was ever born.  Names you can trust to change everything, whether you're laying on the floor trying to figure out how to get some help or just wondering how you're going to celebrate the season -- the right way this year.

Merry, almost Christmas!
Suze